As far as business plans go, I’ve slowed down. I decided it best to commence at snail speed and now I’m carrying on more like a tortoise would. I found that being the hare I wasn’t getting anywhere. You see, I didn’t want to have to admit it or maybe I didn’t even know at first: my ducks were NOT in a row. And a few of ‘em even had gotten lost! But we have certainly been quacking and ruffling our feathers to reunite and all get back into a line. This time in the right order.
Last year I realized, again, that I STILL had so much inner work to do. I was subconsciously trying to avoid the pain of my past and present by throwing myself into work, into trying to begin a whole new career. But I wasn’t ready. I needed more time to heal. More time to learn. More time to balance. More time to grow. In short, more time to be still. To learn to breathe.
I’ve only begun stepping out into what I aspire to be my forever career world. I began a workmanship program with my mentor, someone whom I look up to very much. Here I will gradually be working towards leading embodied writing workshops online for folks across the globe. I’m just getting my feet wet. Only tipped in my toes so far.
In stillness I found that I actually enjoy Yoga, as opposed to when I used to hate it because I just didn’t yet know how to shut off my mind. So I do a lot of all kinds of Yogic techniques. Even taught a chair Yoga class virtually to some folks at my local spiritualist church. And here soon I’ll be starting Yoga school online! So come February 2024 I’ll be certified to teach Yoga and plan to do so in conjunction with other wellness activities.
A lot of responsibilities and unresolved issues I’d been avoiding have taken up time although all were necessary parts of my journey. A few times I let distractions prevent me from getting where I am going. But I’ve forgiven myself for all my mistakes and making the best of it. Actually, I just recently met my goal of meditating two hours daily for an ENTIRE YEAR. You know, that’s a total of 730 hours, which equals 30 days of meditation in a year’s time. Yeah, I did that. It was the best medicine I could find.
I spent some time pursuing mediumship certification at church and learning new healing modalities, working psychic fairs and sharing spirit greetings on the platform, seeing several holistic practitioners to get my brain and body working again properly, trying to remain sane, loving myself in the moments of chaos, doing anything and everything to raise my vibration, beating my issues of addiction and codependency, improving my confidence, overriding the fear, writing and writing, and just trying to always do the next right thing.
Now that I am more grounded and approaching a total state of stability my vision is getting clearer. I still have many tasks to complete before I can soar, but I did repair my own wings with the help of some amazing spirit guides and even some real nice humans too. For the rest of the year I will continue to work on myself, take baby steps towards a bright and successful future, and pray every day for the healing support and worldly connections I need for when it’s time for take-off. This is when I will be able to be a part of the light source to provide the biggest rainbow to ever appear on God and Goddess’s good green Earth.
Thank you so much for all your support and this wonderful opportunity, Kristin!
-Izabela Paz
